November 16, 2013 1:05 pm EST
God, I need a miracle.
Maybe I need to work harder.
Tell me what to do, God.
Maybe I need to love myself more.
Show me the way.
Maybe I need to have more faith.
I so wish I could have better survival skills.
What would you have me do?
I feel like I’m sinking.
I’m begging for a miracle.
Have I taken wrong turns? made bad choices? Am I being punished for being lazy? for my weak faith? What’s the purpose in my endless suffering?
Tell me God; use my hands to give my your words.
What will you do today for my glory? What gifts will you bestow upon a waiting and wailing world? Be not distracted by the naysayers and ne’er-do-wells. Let my light shine through you. Let your mouth sing my song. Let your heart feel my love.
Test me, Lord. Tempt me. Temper and strengthen me in your holy fire.
The days of testing are long past. Today is the day to shine, my son. Be ye of strong faith. Be ye of me.