it's weird
i'm sitting here in this body
that i know is mine
but it doesn't feel like it quite, uhm
fits

i've forgotten how to do my job
forgotten
how to write the little lines
of source code
that make computers sing

it's weird

so i sit here
wondering what to do
should i fake it?
should i decide to search my mind
for the me that sat in this chair
last week?

i look at my business card
senior developer
steve robison
i guess that's me
it always has been
but my mind is elsewhere
my heart is in some other place
and my mind
is trying to catch up
to this new me
i created last night
in a dream
in a conversation
in a moment

weird