How long must it take
to make a decision
to leap back into
the comforting hand of God?

Does the fear of this dark longing
hold me in the chains of loss and
grief?

Alone in the cold pit of loneliness,
the hope and trust
that were my companions
depart from my recognition.

I cannot feel love,
thus I am lost in fear.

Has the love that my heart reminds me
was my constant way,
has that love departed?

Am I forever imprisoned
behind the bars of my nagging desires?

How long must it take
to return to the love
that is my true core?

How long?