As I wait for the phone to ring
I do my best
To live life without you

I eat and sleep and go for walks
Work every day
Converse with my children

I often have little fantasies
Where you show up at the door
Unexpected and unannounced
Joy’s beauteous return

But

When I wake from the dreams
I look at the phone
Sigh and little sigh
And breathe a deep breath

Life continues to move all around me
As I walk in it and through it
As I contribute to it each moment

But still

As I wait for the phone to ring
While I live life without you
My heart pangs

Stilling my thoughts
I will the tears to not flow
Sigh a little sigh
And walk on into another bright day