so the deal is...

a thought happens in the present
the thought creates something
the thought emanates, flows, manifests
i see the effect
i think that the effect that i see is the thought
it is merely the effect

i think of the effect
rather than the cause

i see the creation
not the creator

when i see the creator
i see the truth
i see God

God and i are co-creators
we see what we create
after we create it

so

all i see is past